In this guest post, I am honored to host Dr. Elizabeth (Liz) Phillips, a resident physician in emergency medicine at George Washington University. She wrote this statement as part of her Total Transparency Manifesto on Who’s My Doctor. It was so moving that I asked her for permission to post it here. Thank you, Liz, for your inspiration and your humanity.
I am a physician and
therefore a servant of others but I am also a human being. I believe in the
importance of humanity in medicine and the danger of losing our capacity to
have valuable and true human connections. Undeterred by the warnings from my
mother who is a nurse and therefore all too familiar with the dysfunction of
the health care system, I pursued a career in medicine because I consider it to
be one of the most privileged professions. Not because of the academic prestige
or the potential reimbursement but for the corporal, intense and deeply
personal relationships that physicians have with patients.
My first real encounter with
the ugly side of medicine was in college when I volunteered in a nursing home.
Despite my attempts to mentally prepare myself for visits at the Erwin Gardens,
every week I would find myself aghast of the poorly lit rooms, dirty floors and
slight odor of urine that filled the air. Mrs. J was a Medicaid patient with
little to no control over the quality of her care. Three times a week she would
awake at 4 a.m. to be taken to the hospital for dialysis only to return hours
later, face sunken and stomach growling with no one who really cared. My visits
with Mrs. J were part of a service-in-learning course on Death and Dying but
the interactions that I experienced at her nursing home exposed me to much more
than the dubious and gradual process of dying. It was apparent to me that my
spirited conversations with Mrs. J were a weak anesthetic to the constant sting
of the poor quality of life, depression and lack of options that plagued her
mind.
Patients like Mrs. J have
been salient examples of the complex ethical dilemmas that confront physicians
and our health care system every day. My experiences with her put a human face
on the issues surrounding end of life care, insurance, medical costs, quality of
life and health disparities. Mrs. J poignantly reminded me that physicians are
demanded to work in an environment that ethically challenges them both as professionals
and individuals. The emergency room is a place where many of these issues are
highlighted as physicians struggle to care for patients who are underserved or unable
access care efficiently through other venues.
My philosophy of practice is
deeply impacted by my clinical and educational background. I completed a
masters in bioethics in medical school because it was essential for me to
practice medicine with a constant awareness of patients as individuals and not
illnesses. I am participating in the Who’s My Doctor campaign because it is
important that patients know that I accept no money from drug companies or
device companies. I am not making money from ordering more tests or pushing you
as a patient to make certain medical decisions. I understand that I am a
stranger with whom your share the most personal information and I consider this
a privilege.
I see the need for
physicians to serve as patient advocates. I have also witnessed the increasing
demand for considerate and professional physicians whose integrity and
dedication can withstand the turbulent changes that continue to confront health
care in this country and around the world. I hope to utilize my unique
background by serving as a competent and skilled practicing physician who also
participates in changing policy to make our health care system one that better
serves patients and reinvigorates our focus on comprehensive, preventive and
compassionate care. Mrs. J would expect nothing less than my most valiant attempt
to ameliorate the health care system that failed her in so many ways. I am constantly
striving to make her proud.
Please join us in the joint
patient-provider partnership for transparency.